Ten days later, and I’m finally writing my New Year’s post. I had intentions of doing this long ago (like 10 days ago for instance), but I got busy with family and traveling and now here we are.
Like every other blogger on the internet, I’m here to tell you all about my New Year’s resolutions, or rather, my version of New Year’s resolutions. Instead of writing out a whole list of things that I’m going to do in order to “improve” myself, I’ve decided to pick out one word that I will focus on, and work toward integrating that word into my life as much as possible. The word is a goal, but it is also a type of lifestyle that I would like to work toward.
And while my word (at the moment) should *probably* be procrastination, I’m actually choosing the word “zen”. Zen is thrown around a lot on the internet to the point that it has become slang more than anything. There are also a million and one definitions for “zen” online, meaning I have a lot to work on. However, my favorite definition is the Sanskrit version, which means “to see, to observe, to look”. To me, this means simply living in the moment, observing my surroundings, and not worrying about things that I cannot change.
I personally could use some zen in my life, for multiple reasons, but mostly for the vast changes that will occur this year—and also because I have anxiety issues that could be worked on. While I know that I cannot change the inner workings of my brain and make myself not anxious, I know that I can do my very best to manage. For me, this begins with living in the now, leaving the past in the past, and not worrying about inevitable changes in the future.
To help create more zen in my life, I plan on singing more, playing piano more, drawing, painting, writing down my goals, making more pour overs, and taking time for myself whether that be a day trip to Tahoe with my friends or writing a new song. So far, my year has included looking for a new job that aligns with my current goals, changing my hair, and listening to Van Morrison’s Tupelo Honey on repeat.
My hope is that by choosing a word to focus on, I will not limit myself to one or five or ten goals, but let myself have limitless goals that will help better myself as a person and make me overall happier. The method seems more foolproof and affects my life more than specific goals.
If we’re being honest, I’m getting pretty anxious talking about the changes taking place in my life right now, but I’m also very excited for what these changes will bring. Right now, my goal is to not worry about these changes, but embrace them. So far this year has been truly amazing; I know that it will get more difficult, that there will be ups and downs, that I will have to adjust and change and grow, but I look forward to what is to come.
Feel free to tell me your goals, thoughts, words to live by, aspirations…
Thanks to Zia Records and my brother, Garrett, for the pictures.
*Song of the Day: Tupelo Honey by Van Morrison*